when holy happens in the cereal aisle.

Cara Meredith

Standing in the middle of the Safeway cereal aisle is generally not the place one decides to release the tear-filled floodgates.

But, then again, my tears don’t generally follow the schedule and plans I have for their salty little lives.

I’d left a career in teaching to step into full-time ministry, packing up my bags in the Santa Cruz mountains for the suburbs of Seattle.  But somehow, I think I’d misunderstood the intent of songs of my Christian upbringing, because I took having the “…joy, joy, joy, joy down in my heart,” a little too literally.   I came to believe that if I had Jesus in my heart, I would and could experience little to no pain.  Eternal, joy-filled happiness must always reside, I resolutely clung to and believed – even when life is hard, even when tragedy strikes.  Because everything happens for a reason, I’d whisper.  Because he’s not going to give us anything we can’t handle, I’d say over and over again, mimicking the words of Mother Teresa

So when pain came, I stuffed it down. 

I held back tears, staying strong for the people around me, because this was who I believed I was supposed to be: and she, the Professional Christian, the one getting paid to love Jesus, was secure enough to lead the people around me.

But then the reality of loneliness set in.

The hardships of moving and starting over, both vocationally and relationally, began to rear their honest, ugly heads.

To read the rest of the article, and what went down in the middle of the cereal aisle, click here and visit my friend Adelle in the meantime!  

xo, c.

5 thoughts on “when holy happens in the cereal aisle.

  1. WOW! You are one brave chica! I think it is so hard to identify what is in our own hearts, and to admit when you’re hurting or alone. It’s almost easier to see, help and support others, especially as a mom than it is to face what’s really in our hearts. Isn’t it ironic that to be a better friend, mom and wife we have to follow and listen to our own hearts as well! Its awesome you are facing your fears, and have found or are finding a way to be true to yourself and have a job you love!

    Do you remember our conversations in college debating the issue of working in a job that makes money vs working in a job that makes us happy! You were always right! Case and point, I’m teaching math to 8th graders…

    Miss you my friend!

    1. That was always our biggest conversation and debate, wasn’t it? Following our hearts vs. our heads …I’m glad we’ve both squeezed our way into the former. 🙂

      Cara Meredith

      be, mama. be. carameredith.com

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